I AM
Birth Story
It all started on Thursday september 17, 2015 I was feeling sick and I was about a week late on giving birth. My mom and I set up an appointment to see a doctor and they said everything is fine but they wanted to induce me since I was a week late on giving birth. We set for that following sunday to be induced. After we left the doctor's office we went to walmart for a few things, Angel my boyfriend and I were wandering around when i started having little contractions but at that time i felt like they were big. We went home so I can relax. I went to bed at 11 pm after we tried some natural ways to induce labor. At about 2:30 am i woke up to use the bathroom I was fine I until i got into bed and then I started having really bad contractions I tried waiting for almost an hour before Angel went and told my mom that they were getting worse. My mom got the car ready and we left. On the way to the hospital I broke some parts of my moms car. The hospital is about 45 mins or an hour away. We got to the hospital at about 4 or 5 am the doctors kept me under observation for about 2 and a half hours and told me I was 2cm dilated. They told me I could stay there and walk around to help with the process or go home until my body is more ready to give birth I stayed there and walked around for about 30-60 mins and I was bleeding worse then I was before I started walking so we went back up to the birthing rooms and I went from 2 cm to 7 cm so they put me in the tub and I didn’t want to get out. Then my grandma and great grandma showed up. The doctors asked if I wanted the epidural shoot and at first I kind of did but I wasn’t sure they told me it would prolong the birth, they checked to see if we had time but I said no I don’t want it they said good you don’t have time to get it. I said do I have time the bathroom i thought I had to go #2 but they were like you don’t have to go and I kept arguing with them then they said I see hair. I started to push and next thing I know my sons hand is in my mouth before they washed him so I had blood and other stuff in my mouth. I slept for a little bit but then I woke up and asked if I could go home now they told me no we have to keep you for a couple nights. After the birth and after everyone found out I gave birth I wasn’t able to rest my room had so many people in it until about 9:30pm. (Angel stayed with me both the nights with me.) The next morning my mom came back at 7:00am and my room was crazy again. All my family and some of my friends came, they stayed until about 8:30pm or 9:30pm, and a photographer came in and took pictures of Sebastian. When the doctor asked what I wanted to name my son I told her sebastian she asked me how I wanted to spell it I told her I have no idea. Everyone thinks Sebastian is supposed to be a mexican name because the dad is mexican but it's not It actually is a latin name and a roman name it was a name used for roman emperors.
MY parents
My mom: My mom’s life is kind of complicated I don’t know much about her life because she doesn’t like to talk about her life. What I do know is her dad left her and her mom but her mom met the love of her life wich is who I knew as my grandpa he still is even though he passed away almost 2 years ago.
My dad: My dad
My brothers
my brothers are both younger than me but look older
Brent: Is 4 years younger than me and looks like 2 years older than me. One day my mom said she was going out to get me a puppy and came back 3 days later with something wrapped in a blanket I thought it was my puppy but it was a little smelly noisy little person and I got mad and slapped him I was almost 5 I didn’t understand it was wrong but i’m glad he came into my I love him.
Ravan: He is 2 years younger than I am but according to Angel’s (my fiance) family thinks he looks like he’s almost 30. Him and I don’t get along too well but I still love him and I don’t know where I would be without him or Brent.
Things that have impacted my life
There have been a lot of things that have impacted my life some good and some bad. My parents got divorced when i was 4 years old this has impacted me because I had to travel back and forth between both houses plus my mom has been in and out of my life by moving to state after state3 only staying in colorado for a year or so at a time and in a different state for almost 3 or 4 years at the maximum. This experience made me who I am today because I look back and I don’t want my son to go through that because my mom and dad didn’t try to work it out they ended it because they fought a lot. When I was at my mom's house when I was 5 years old I was playing by my window and I saw a woman get raped and shot in the head, my mom heard me scream and she came running in and she saw the woman on the ground, this has impacted my life because now I won’t sleep by a window i can see out of, for the longest time I didn’t understand why and my mom told me the story, my old therapist told me the reason why I forgot about it was because I put it in the back of my head since I was so young. 7:20:2012 The date of the movie theater shooting, my brother Brent my best friend Kaylyn her brother Nathan and his girlfriend at the time and I went to see batman the dark knight rises we sat right behind James Holmes I watched him get up and leave I thought he was on the phone, then next thing I know things are being thrown through the theater and gun shots going off. I had a really bad allergic reaction to the tear gas he was sending through the audience. But that isn’t the last shooting I was involved in. Back in november 20014 I was living in my 1969 VW hippie van and I went into my mom’s best friend's house to use the bathroom which was in my mom’s and her best friend's room and I walked in to him having a gun to my mom’s head and having sex with her and I knew if I said anything or made my presence known we would be in trouble. Back on November,26 2014 we were living with one of my mom’s childhood best friend Charles Hunter Clements aka Hunter (the best friend I previously talked about) my boyfriend at the time and I just got back from boxing and we noticed that him and my mom have been fighting and he was acting all sketchy so we went to our room after we ate dinner, at about 10 pm I was awoken by gun shots so I woke up my boyfriend and told him, he quickly got up and told me not to leave the room he went to see what was happening he came back and said get your shoes on we’re leaving. But Hunter had different plans he wouldn’t let my brother Brent leave so no one left. I was going back to my room to find my phone to call the cops when I heard another gunshot so I quickly turned around to make sure everyone was ok then I realized that the gun was pointed at me and the bullet was less than 1 foot away from my head if I was six or seven inches to the right I would have been shot in the head it was an ak47. Hunter is currently in jail because of it but he gets out May 16 2016 and has threatened to come after my mom and I. In the summer of 2015 I met Angel at JobCorps, little did I know he was going to be the love of my life and the father of my child. And now it’s been almost a year that we have been living together May 1st is the year mark. We got together on Halloween of 2015 and we got pregnant in December, I found out I was pregnant January 6 the day after my birthday that day changed my life for ever I was told by a doctor before I left to job corps that I was not fertile to have kids and now I have a beautiful son named Sebastian and now I have an amazing fiance Angel. And I’m graduating high school.
Things that make me happy
My son makes me happy
shiney/fluffy things make me happy
Angel makes me happy brownies/cookies/food makes me happy My fluffy babies make me happy (kitties and dogs)
My family/friends/teachers make me happy
And going on adventures make me happy
Things that make me sad
People who lie
Backstabbers
Seeing my son sick
People who want to judge before they know the story
Strengths
My strengths are I’m a people person, I usually try to keep myself in a positive mood, I am motivated, I love to help animals, and I am good at math. I like to play the drum I was drum leader in the drum line at Job Corps. I can play the Viola but I haven't played it in awhile.
Weaknes
My weakness are I am a very blunt person, I call people out on their “mess ups”, I tend not to like giving other people a chance to answer questions or do something the boss asks.
My religion/ beliefs
I am a wiccan, and I believe in the Greek Mythology Gods, but I grew up with catholicism being shoved down my throat.
Beauty
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, in my opinion everyone and everything is beautiful in its own way, nature is beauty.
Friendship
Friendship to me is trust, honesty, helping, caring, and being there for one another.
Home
Home is where you feel safe, where your loved ones are home is where you lay your head down at night.
3 Important things for being a parent
- being loving
-being caring
-being supportive
What I need to focus on for future :)
Get a better job, finnish high school and go to college
Success
Success is being where you want to be in life (money, education, happiness, living, transportation etc), in my opinion I am not successful yet but one day I will be.
Gratefulness
- I am a lover
- I am a family person
- I am a mother
- I am a little crazy
- I am caring
- I am honest
- I am beautiful
- I am a papa’s girl
- I am blunt
- I am a survivor
- I am a juggalo
- I am an artist
Birth Story
It all started on Thursday september 17, 2015 I was feeling sick and I was about a week late on giving birth. My mom and I set up an appointment to see a doctor and they said everything is fine but they wanted to induce me since I was a week late on giving birth. We set for that following sunday to be induced. After we left the doctor's office we went to walmart for a few things, Angel my boyfriend and I were wandering around when i started having little contractions but at that time i felt like they were big. We went home so I can relax. I went to bed at 11 pm after we tried some natural ways to induce labor. At about 2:30 am i woke up to use the bathroom I was fine I until i got into bed and then I started having really bad contractions I tried waiting for almost an hour before Angel went and told my mom that they were getting worse. My mom got the car ready and we left. On the way to the hospital I broke some parts of my moms car. The hospital is about 45 mins or an hour away. We got to the hospital at about 4 or 5 am the doctors kept me under observation for about 2 and a half hours and told me I was 2cm dilated. They told me I could stay there and walk around to help with the process or go home until my body is more ready to give birth I stayed there and walked around for about 30-60 mins and I was bleeding worse then I was before I started walking so we went back up to the birthing rooms and I went from 2 cm to 7 cm so they put me in the tub and I didn’t want to get out. Then my grandma and great grandma showed up. The doctors asked if I wanted the epidural shoot and at first I kind of did but I wasn’t sure they told me it would prolong the birth, they checked to see if we had time but I said no I don’t want it they said good you don’t have time to get it. I said do I have time the bathroom i thought I had to go #2 but they were like you don’t have to go and I kept arguing with them then they said I see hair. I started to push and next thing I know my sons hand is in my mouth before they washed him so I had blood and other stuff in my mouth. I slept for a little bit but then I woke up and asked if I could go home now they told me no we have to keep you for a couple nights. After the birth and after everyone found out I gave birth I wasn’t able to rest my room had so many people in it until about 9:30pm. (Angel stayed with me both the nights with me.) The next morning my mom came back at 7:00am and my room was crazy again. All my family and some of my friends came, they stayed until about 8:30pm or 9:30pm, and a photographer came in and took pictures of Sebastian. When the doctor asked what I wanted to name my son I told her sebastian she asked me how I wanted to spell it I told her I have no idea. Everyone thinks Sebastian is supposed to be a mexican name because the dad is mexican but it's not It actually is a latin name and a roman name it was a name used for roman emperors.
MY parents
My mom: My mom’s life is kind of complicated I don’t know much about her life because she doesn’t like to talk about her life. What I do know is her dad left her and her mom but her mom met the love of her life wich is who I knew as my grandpa he still is even though he passed away almost 2 years ago.
My dad: My dad
My brothers
my brothers are both younger than me but look older
Brent: Is 4 years younger than me and looks like 2 years older than me. One day my mom said she was going out to get me a puppy and came back 3 days later with something wrapped in a blanket I thought it was my puppy but it was a little smelly noisy little person and I got mad and slapped him I was almost 5 I didn’t understand it was wrong but i’m glad he came into my I love him.
Ravan: He is 2 years younger than I am but according to Angel’s (my fiance) family thinks he looks like he’s almost 30. Him and I don’t get along too well but I still love him and I don’t know where I would be without him or Brent.
Things that have impacted my life
There have been a lot of things that have impacted my life some good and some bad. My parents got divorced when i was 4 years old this has impacted me because I had to travel back and forth between both houses plus my mom has been in and out of my life by moving to state after state3 only staying in colorado for a year or so at a time and in a different state for almost 3 or 4 years at the maximum. This experience made me who I am today because I look back and I don’t want my son to go through that because my mom and dad didn’t try to work it out they ended it because they fought a lot. When I was at my mom's house when I was 5 years old I was playing by my window and I saw a woman get raped and shot in the head, my mom heard me scream and she came running in and she saw the woman on the ground, this has impacted my life because now I won’t sleep by a window i can see out of, for the longest time I didn’t understand why and my mom told me the story, my old therapist told me the reason why I forgot about it was because I put it in the back of my head since I was so young. 7:20:2012 The date of the movie theater shooting, my brother Brent my best friend Kaylyn her brother Nathan and his girlfriend at the time and I went to see batman the dark knight rises we sat right behind James Holmes I watched him get up and leave I thought he was on the phone, then next thing I know things are being thrown through the theater and gun shots going off. I had a really bad allergic reaction to the tear gas he was sending through the audience. But that isn’t the last shooting I was involved in. Back in november 20014 I was living in my 1969 VW hippie van and I went into my mom’s best friend's house to use the bathroom which was in my mom’s and her best friend's room and I walked in to him having a gun to my mom’s head and having sex with her and I knew if I said anything or made my presence known we would be in trouble. Back on November,26 2014 we were living with one of my mom’s childhood best friend Charles Hunter Clements aka Hunter (the best friend I previously talked about) my boyfriend at the time and I just got back from boxing and we noticed that him and my mom have been fighting and he was acting all sketchy so we went to our room after we ate dinner, at about 10 pm I was awoken by gun shots so I woke up my boyfriend and told him, he quickly got up and told me not to leave the room he went to see what was happening he came back and said get your shoes on we’re leaving. But Hunter had different plans he wouldn’t let my brother Brent leave so no one left. I was going back to my room to find my phone to call the cops when I heard another gunshot so I quickly turned around to make sure everyone was ok then I realized that the gun was pointed at me and the bullet was less than 1 foot away from my head if I was six or seven inches to the right I would have been shot in the head it was an ak47. Hunter is currently in jail because of it but he gets out May 16 2016 and has threatened to come after my mom and I. In the summer of 2015 I met Angel at JobCorps, little did I know he was going to be the love of my life and the father of my child. And now it’s been almost a year that we have been living together May 1st is the year mark. We got together on Halloween of 2015 and we got pregnant in December, I found out I was pregnant January 6 the day after my birthday that day changed my life for ever I was told by a doctor before I left to job corps that I was not fertile to have kids and now I have a beautiful son named Sebastian and now I have an amazing fiance Angel. And I’m graduating high school.
Things that make me happy
My son makes me happy
shiney/fluffy things make me happy
Angel makes me happy brownies/cookies/food makes me happy My fluffy babies make me happy (kitties and dogs)
My family/friends/teachers make me happy
And going on adventures make me happy
Things that make me sad
People who lie
Backstabbers
Seeing my son sick
People who want to judge before they know the story
Strengths
My strengths are I’m a people person, I usually try to keep myself in a positive mood, I am motivated, I love to help animals, and I am good at math. I like to play the drum I was drum leader in the drum line at Job Corps. I can play the Viola but I haven't played it in awhile.
Weaknes
My weakness are I am a very blunt person, I call people out on their “mess ups”, I tend not to like giving other people a chance to answer questions or do something the boss asks.
My religion/ beliefs
I am a wiccan, and I believe in the Greek Mythology Gods, but I grew up with catholicism being shoved down my throat.
Beauty
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, in my opinion everyone and everything is beautiful in its own way, nature is beauty.
Friendship
Friendship to me is trust, honesty, helping, caring, and being there for one another.
Home
Home is where you feel safe, where your loved ones are home is where you lay your head down at night.
3 Important things for being a parent
- being loving
-being caring
-being supportive
What I need to focus on for future :)
Get a better job, finnish high school and go to college
Success
Success is being where you want to be in life (money, education, happiness, living, transportation etc), in my opinion I am not successful yet but one day I will be.
Gratefulness
- My son Sebastian
- My family
- Angel (my fiance)
- My furry babies (dogs, cats, animals)
- My tattoos
- Getting to graduate
- The oceans and beach
- Life
- Food (lol)
- My friends
- Music
- furry/ shiney things
- My teachers
- education/ women's rights